Okay. So the truth is that I've been in kind of a stinker of a mood...and trying really hard not to let it show. I'm getting sick. I'm getting SICK, and I just cannot get full-on, take to my bed with the leeches and the compresses, sick. I do not have a week to spare from my current efforts to rule the regional media world, or just to write a single stupid story.
I'm not focusing. I let some things throw me off this week that really had no business doing so. So in lieu of any reasonable writing from my own damned fingers, I sought out some other people to inspire me. Done and done.
Grace answered these questions from Meg Fowler the other day, and had also tagged me recently in a book meme. I missed this, because I've been sucked headlong into my new graduate school existence which, while exhilaratingly wonderful in ways I will describe as soon as I have the ability to focus on one simple task and train of thought, is kicking the shit out of me in terms of a reinvigorated threshold of exhaustion. Please just note that if you show up in DC and want to hang out, I'm going to suggest coffee. And then perhaps several beers. Just sayin'. Come by soon!
Before you get here, verily I will complete Grace's suggested writing exercises, because I need them. And also because "Bridge Over Troubled Water" is on the iTunes currently and I'm fixing to cry like the big old baby I am. I am such a big baby. Oh my God this song can so easily make me cry. It reminds me of my Grandma. And now I'm crying.
HERE! Read the surveys! Distract me!
First, Meg. (Meg is a rockstar. Why are you reading me instead of her?)
1. Why do you live where you live? I live here because it's close to campus, and because I was seduced by the hardwood floors and sloping dormer ceilings of my bedroom. And also because I didn''t want to look anymore.
2. Why do you do the job you do? I fell into the counseling gig accidentally. I keep doing it because I like the teaching part of it, I think. The writing I do because I don't know how not to.
3. Why are you with the person you’re with? I'm with myself because I have no choice. The last time this applied in the l-u-v love sense, it was because I didn't think it was fun or advisable to not be with him, and I knew I would be, inexplicably, much less happy were I not. That must apply in the future, if it ever applies again.
4. If you could change one thing about your life today, what would it be? I'd have had a baby by now.
5. What is the greatest source of happiness in your life? A very few, select people, my dog, and music.
6. What is the greatest source of discontent in your life? Coping with loss and fearing future outcomes over which I have no control. Occasionally money and my inability to lose weight.
7. If you were handed $10,000 today, what would you do with it? Buy an iMac and pay off my car.
8. What is your favourite quality in a friend? I love people I can genuinely laugh with, and also people I don't have to explain things to, who understand them anyway.
9. What is an unforgivable mistake in a friendship? I honestly don't know the answer to this. I've ended friendships over a few things - mostly it comes down to lying, I guess? Or just extreme, pathological selfishness. I don't believe in that.
10. What is a true relationship dealbreaker for you? You can't be dishonest and hang with me. No doubled-up presents for my near-Christmas birthday. And you can't not like to kiss me. A lot. I'm lacking that lately, which makes me think there isn't really a god.
Book meme tomorrow.
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